i'm sorry

I’m sorry for hurting you badly
Seriously, I never realize your true feeling towards me
I just thought you’re joking
I’m sorry because I really don’t care bout it since the first time you tell me
“you are so special for me”

I thought it’s just the way you show your love to me as your friend
Never know till one day
When I tell you I’m with him,
Then you’re changing
The way you talk to me, the way you look at me
So different and I can feel there’s something wrong
But I still can’t figure it out “Why??”

When I ask “Is something wrong I’ve done to you?”
Then you just turn away and leave me




One day I cry till my eyes turn red because he hurts me
Then you come, trying to make me happy and smile
But I can’t stop crying
Then, yah! I still remember, you acting like a clown just to make me laugh
I can see how much you hate seeing me crying
And I can feel it too, that’s you never want me to be sad just because of him

He always hurts me and you the one who tries hard to make me happy
But one thing I realize, you hiding something
When I talk with you about him, I can see your eyes like burning inside,
Your words like killing yourself but you force to speak it out just to make me calm
I can see it but I’m not so sure

I don’t know how much you suffer,
But I know the pain you feel inside you
I know you trying to let it go but you can’t

I’m sorry if I hurt you much
I never mean to do so
I just want you to be my friend
Always be with me, care for me, and share everything with me
Just like before

But everything change now

I don’t want you to leave
I still need you
I always want you
Forever as my best friend

I'm sorry...

a note for you

I just walk around
Pretending that I’m strong
Even though I feel like crying

Nobody knows, my feelings
They fighting and killing me now
So I just make it over
Till I fall to the ground

Can’t you see?
Can’t you feel it?
Every thing I try to tell you
Look into my eyes
And you’ll know someday

Before I leave you
Before I go away
Before I say goodbye
Hear me for a second

I just want you to know
I always love you
Forever till the end

If you could find someone else
That’s better then me
I would begging for you
Don’t ever forget me

Keep me in your heart
The best one
Even though I know
I’m not

As if you know
I always try to be the best for you
I always try to make you happy
But I always turned it worse

I just watch you from a distance now
Looking how you smile and laugh with your friends
Without knowing I’m there
Without realizing I’m crying

Maybe you don’t feel it
But I hope you’ll find me before my last breathe